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# Hi, this is my first try to write fiction since quite a long absence from the field. Please consider this when judging the quality of the text.
# Title: Notes written by mistake.

Hello, possible reader. It is in a way funny how we all find this need to write at some point of our lives. Some of us do it because they are in love, because the beauty of nature fills their being until they are on the edge of exploding and blooming like a flower. This, as you reader might have thought if you know me at all, is not my own case. I write, we could say, by mistake. I mean I have been driven to write by my own mistakes in life, and in the case that I had lived as I certainly should have lived I can promise these words would have never come out of my hands.
I have decided to start a small chronicle, or rather notebook, since chronicle sounds too formal and apologetic. I have no need to apologize,, neither do I have a reason, and most important, neither do I have a drive to do so. And as I do as I will, except when circumstances push me to do what I have to, I will firmly stick to my own drive of bragging about my own mistakes instead of pathetically asking you reader for your forgiveness and your understanding.
My existence is, in many ways, a boreign and pointless one. I do not work, for I am a student. As if that wouldn't be enough, I am a student on vacation. Have you ever met anything proner than a student in vacation to existential doubts and to fruitless speculative thoughts? If you have, I must say you have a greater worldly experience than I do, which is on the other hand nothing surprising. I live in a small flat, in a small town, in a small region, in a small country, but in a great and wide cyberspace, where I spend a good half of my conscious hours. It is not so much out of boredom as out of despise that I loos myself within the mazy corners of cyberspace. It is doubtlessly a matter of pride for me not to belong to this community of conformists and slavish followers of dictated truths. Nevertheless, I am well aware that cyberspace is only a partial exit from all this reality. In fact, I probably strongly resemble most of those beings I terribly despise, and as I do resemble them, I despise them even more. They are nothing extraordinary, even I can be like them without trying hard at all, which means they are worthless. Of course that would render myself worthless if it wouldn't be because I am aware I resemble them only at times, and I can become different if I ever truly choose to do so.
Well, perhaps this is self .. what is that word? Oh, yes, self-deception, because I must admit I have never tried. The conviction that I am in some way superior to them is a conviction that is born more as a methaphysical statement of fact than as any rational or empirical result of my reasonning. I wish yo would know, as I know, how bad it is to type into this old keyboard, connected to an old computer, resting on an uncomfortable chair (either to low or too high) on this annoying slidy surface designed to make of typing a capitalist torture.
This is my first notation. I doubt that notations in the future will strongly differ from what you have read. If this does not attract you, which I would well understand, you are free to stop now.
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